And then I heard the news. Another girl had been asked to aide at school. It seemed so cruel. I was sure she couldn't want the job as much as I did. But I did my best to be happy for her and accept that someday, somehow, a door would open for me to work at school, too, even if I had to wait until I was eighteen and could go teach.
A few weeks later, on September 13, 2006, the phone rang.
"Would you be interested in aiding at school?" the voice asked. It seemed that because of circumstances the first aide would not be able to work every day. Did I want to share the responsibility?
Did I ever! I couldn't believe it. I got off the phone feeling like I had won a million bucks. That evening I wrote the following poem:
He Makes My Dreams Come True
I marvel at God's wisdomAnd the way He works things out.I want to praise His mighty power,I want to sing and shout.For somehow He takes my dreams,Each wish and each desire,And holding them in tongs of love,He purifies with fire.Then grasping tight, He forms my lifeAnd makes my dreams come true.The longings that are hiddenAnd the ones I know of, too.No matter what surroundings,He somehow makes a wayTo give my soul's desiresEvery passing day!
It may not be the best poem written by a sixteen year old that you'll ever read, but I still like it because I know the story behind its creation. I know the searing disappointment when it felt that my little dreams had been crushed and bruised beyond recovery. I know the great light that filled my soul when I realized that God had not forgotten me after all.
This experience has helped me so much in my life. There have been many, many times since then that I've had plans and dreams that haven't turned out exactly as I thought they ought. To my amazement, I find that every time I am able to submit to God's plan, He brings me something marvelous at the moment that I feel all hope is gone.
If you feel you are being asked to give up something that you hold dear, don't ever doubt God's love for you. He hasn't forgotten you. He is just waiting for the perfect moment to present the amazing gift He's been personalizing just for you.
I needed that today, Nettie! Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteYou are very welcome! Thanks for stopping by!
DeleteLove it. Hard to believe it sometimes tho.
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